today i was woken up at 4….so i can have time to run….so my mom can have me go to church with her and not be alone…at 5:40…… at 4 i had gotten up done some simple workouts before my run and wrote out a huge positive paragraph for my friend who is going thru a rough time…and then ran. might i add, it was way to fucking early for me to be THAT POSITIVE, but i did it.
then around 8;20 i climbed four fucking flight of stairs to get to my class room, only to get to the top and be told by a class mate that class is canceled…and i had nothing to do until 12:30…so i went running..AGAIN.. i ran 5 miles..(why would i go run again, when im so tired? well running actually wakes me up and makes me more energetic then coffee).came back to the campus, got changed, went to class…then after class went to the library to do math homework..then i was off by an hour so i went to my next class an hour early and was so confused that i couldnt figure out the actual time, and the actual time my class begun, because my math buddy was there to and he threw it off for me but then i just left and went to my car…and guess what?!? it was DEAD.
because the damn battery had a lose cable that wasnt twisted all the way in….and the police had to jump start it and in order to fucking jumpstart my car i had to fill out papers and show my license and registration…i was ready to scream cause i am so exhausted and frustrated.
so i start driving home and my mom calls me to go to the gym with her. so i went to the gym for her, ran another 2 miles…..and lifted weights and more fun workouts….all while reading the assigned chapter..thats hard to do while running.
now here i am stuck being positive for my friend when i really want to scream and curl up and just fucking sleep and throw these goddamn text books against a wall and into a fire pit. i am so sleep deprived from waking up early all the time to run at 5 and do other workouts to help prepare myself for the army, do my studies and homework. and chores and help my brother train as well for the USMC. i get about a total of 3-5 hours of sleep.
so to those who complain….about getting about only 6-7 hours of sleep.. FUCK YOU. I would love to have that much sleep.
to those who have friends near by to actually help jump start your car, FUCK YOU, mine were all working on duty or in a class.
to those who only have work and classes with less than 4 hours of study per class, FUCK YOU. mine is way to much and i have 4 classes…with a minimum of 5 hours of studying.
and to those who get to be lazy all the time FUCK YOU. I hate you.
and to those who have a job and classes…still FUCK YOU. my grades would probably be better if i had just classes and chores and a job with more than 4-5 hours of sleep. ild do just fine.
and for those who have never had more than 2 blisters on their feet….i hate you. its painful…especially when they are the size of a quarter or bigger and you still have to run…
all this will be worth it in the end though…